due to a recent spate of incidents, i've come to realise life is indeed so fragile. i need to learn to be more appreciative and grateful for the things i have. to cherish the people around me and not take them for granted. please let them stay safe and healthy till a 100 years old. because i don't think i will be able to handle departures well. sigh

i love you so fucking much

probably more than i love myself lol

this sudden surge of emotions. i'm not sure how should i deal with. i wish i could stop feeling stop thinking 

help, turning 21 this year and i've yet to accomplish anything in life:

• not attaining my diploma cert

• $0 savings

• not sure what to do/go in life

for 2015, i hope to be able to get my diploma cert, saved up at least $3500-5000. lastly, being able to know/what i want to do in life

i want to stop feeling like a fucking failure

i want to stop being fucking fat and ugly

i want to stop being fucking broke

i just want to be enough and self-sustainable. why is it so hard?